Friday Teen Files

Before you break the news to me that it's Sunday, let me tell you... I know it's Sunday.  But, I discovered a box full of notes and various stuffs from my teen years and have decided to start a new weekly feature:  Friday Teen Files. 

Yes.  I'm going to embarrass myself for our mutual entertainment - all in the name of research, right??  And since I didn't post on Friday, I've decided to jump in and get it going.  I have no idea where to start, so I grabbed the first amusing thing I saw.

I present to you:  A bubble chart + notes of (I think) fourteen-year-old me.  I can only assume, as I do not recall, that I was trying to 1) understand my life 2) understand why I am was such a geek.  Clearly I did not realize making a bubble chart of this nature only supported the latter.  I do recall jotting this down quickly because I was really frustrated about something.  Hmmm...

 

(I apologize for the quality of the picture.  I need to buy a scanner.)

Bubble Highlights: 

• Baby me:  Healthy.  Misshapen head for awhile.  Moved.  Good family.  Good home life. 
• Child me:  Public school.  Very immature.  Still playing animals in 6th grade.  Loved magic and animals more than anything. Unicorn visit.  
• Teen me:  Matured quickly.  Started period.  Breasts grew.  Got a crush.  Bugged him.  Asked him out.  Jokes.  Many, many problems.  Always wanted to run away.  Depression.  Confused.  Decorated room fantasy-like.
• To-be adult me: Want a job.  I want love - scared of it.  I want a kid a lot.  Have a dream of running away and taking some horses to search for anything out of norm.  Very odd.  Not ready to commit.

Note Highlights:

• I watch all these movies.  I read all these books.  I love them yet they are teasing me.  I ponder around and around.  Ever wondering, ever silent.  Sometimes I try to tell people but they just nod and smile, act like they care.
• I had a visit with a uni.  It was white and pure.  It talked to me.  I talked to him.  He told me something of my future to which I don't remember.
• Passion to be different, to be something magic.  Maybe swept away.
• I watched a mythical movie and started to wonder if things could be like that.  I walked out into the garage and noticed a card on the wall.  It said: Follow your dreams and see where they will take you.
• 7th grade depression.  Tried to run away.  My friend bailed on me - sad but true - we had maps and plans to go to Alaska.   

And these are only the highlights.  No joke.  Are you starting to become concerned for me?  Cause...I am.  And I have to ask, is this...normal?  More next week.